dear diary..

tonite xtau why i'm feelin really..really sad.. :( mayb sindrom PMS kowt.. but i'm really feelin sad.
td lepas solat maghrib..i received a call from my dad.. Ya Allah..oni You noes hw much i'm missing him..
After talkin to him..hearing ol those self esteem-elevating words from him..suddenly it struck my mind tat ol this while my parents are d main source of my courage..my motivator..without them i'm jus nothing. (but of course..they do cm after Allah n Rasulullah saw..)

 How i wish tat i could b at their side at this very moment..so tat i can huge them n let them noe how much i'm thankful to Allah for blessing me wit such an amazing parents.. If oni i could...i want to serve them till d very end..
Jus for d record..my parents ar not well-educated. My mom ws not allowed to study by her father where else my father had to help his father to run d family..

They dont want their children to miss any possible oppurtunity in gaining knowledge as they couldnt.. My only prayer to Allah is "ya Allah...Tuhan segala alam..aku memohon kepadaMu ya Allah..jadikan lah aku anak yang soleh ,yang berbakti kepada orang tuanya., dan tidak sesekali menyakitkan hati mereka.. Sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pendengar....lagi Maha Mengasihani.."

feel much better rite nw..meleleh2 lak idung nih.. hik3..~
tq dearest diary for listening to me.. 
muahxx...~ :)

salam..

Assalammualaikum..

well..life is gettn busier each day.(but stil cn find sum tyme to conteng ma blog..heheh). Exam is jus around d corner..insyaAllah...wil do my best..
nk jadikan cete..walaupon br lalui satu department..i tink i'm cn understand bout hospital's life..n oso not forgettng d true color of people..(to b precise..ur own frenss..!!) Seriesly...sumtymes they really giv u an extreme shock..
but wat to do..tis is life maa.... huhu..(ciplak ayat satu 'kawan' nih...
neways...me gettng xtra nervous..bcz my sis is goin on a date wit a guy which has 50% chances of becmg her husband.. hoho...xtremely nervous oke..! tis ws arranged by family.. so lets c hw things goess...huhu.
kekwn sekalian..lets pray for my sis.. "ya Allah..klu die mmg soulmate kakak aku yg telah Kau ciptakan buat kakakku..maka bukakan la hati mereka utk menerima satu sama lain.. dan dipermudahkan urusan mereka membina 'masjid' bersama.. Tetapi jjikalau mereka bukan Engkau ciptakan buat satu sama lain..maka jauhkan la mereka" Ameeeeeeeennnnnn.. :)

My head gonna hit d pillow rite now.. nitezzz..
shab'bakher.. ^^

perfect..??!!!

salam...n hei there..~

ar u perfect..??? well...i xpernah consider myself as PerFect.! I'm aint angel.. i'm not flawless...i bukan 'cukup bagus kinda girl'..i'm not a brilliant student..i'm not 'out-of-d-world-gorgeous'.. I'm jus a simple ME. But yet..at tymes..i really have to do sumthings tat wil make ppl to question me back.. 'ko ingat ko bagus sgt ke..??' 'ko rs ko je yg cantik kat dunia nie..?' 'ape ko ingat aku terhegeh2 kat ko..?' OR.. 'asal ko kurg ajar sgt eh.??" well3...i dnt care wat people think bout me..yg i noe..i dnt do any bad things to u  guys..i jus want to b alone. JUS LEAVE ME ALONE. bile kite dh bg byk la sgt signals yg org yg xgi sekolah pon blh paham..!!! then U yg force me to b a BIATche..! hope nw u wil understand. Believe me tis is for our own gud. U wil b thankfull to me one day.. :)

arghhhhhhhh..!!!!

Astaghafirullah-halazimmmmmmmmmmmm.... syaitan3 sekalian pegi la main jauh-jauhhhhhhhhhh ehhh... !!!!!!
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...sgt3 emosi nie... nie sume gare2 syaitan2 ni la... huhu..~

ya Allah...dugaan nie..sgt menyeksa sukma ku...huhu.. :(

Saya nk buat pengakuan kat sni.. Saya sgt3 tertarik dgn lelaki wif chinese look yg smart n gud lookin.. Ade je lelaki2 dgn kriteria tersebut..mate nie mcm dh ter'gam' kat wajah dorg.. cissss...sgt2 memalukan.. Kalau dorg perasaan mesti terdetik kat hati dorg.. 'xpenah tengok org ke..??' uwaahhh..malunye.. tp nk buat cane eh... syaitan2 nie suke sgt menggoda saya dgn menggunakan anda sebagai modal..!!

Klu ade yg terbace nie mesti ckp.. ' So wat's d big deal..??'.. 'Normal la ppuan suke kat laki..habis tu xkan nk tertarik kat sesame ppuan kowt..!!' TAPI anda2 sekalian.. it is NOT oke for an engaged girl utk tertarik kat laki lain selain fiancee dorg rite..!! hohoho...

Rase nk nangis darah pon ade.. so skrg nk salahkan sape..?? yes..  u ar rite..! Mereka dan keluarga mereka.. hahahaha..~ hmmmm....well..i admit salah diri sndri pon ade gak. Lemah sgt smpi boleh digode2 oleh en.setan3.. heheh~. well..there is also ur fault mr.fiancee..! knp anda ada tp xpenah wujud..? tell me..

Ya Allah..kuatkan imanku..semoga aku dan keluarga ku sentiasa dibawah peliharaanMu.. ameen.. ^^

jiwang2 Karat..hehe

cinta sang ratu..
laksana langit mencengkam purnama..
ibarat mutiara di lautan biru..
saujana mata memandang..

seluas langit terbentang..tatkala cinta berbisik..
suaranya memuji Tuhan..

apabila rindu terusik..

Rasulnya menjadi pilihan..

sampai masanya cinta menjadi taruhan..

Sang Ratu menjadi pilihan. ♥ ♥ ♥

p/s: my first cycle is dermatology... unbelievable..huhu..~