from Him we come from....n to Him we wiLL....

Salam n hi people..

It has been quite a time rite.. So much things happened.
Sad...more saddening...most saddening event took place.

Jus to share with u guys.. my father in law passed away last week. Inalillahiwainnailaihirajioun..

It was on Friday morning, rite before the Subuh (dawn pray) adzan. It was my husband who received the call informing about this horrible news.

My husband, his sister , my mom n myself (SubhanAllah...i was on leave that day) flew to pakistan on the very same day hoping to see my fil face for the last time.. But Allah has better plan for us. Eventhough we reached Pakistan on time but due to weather problem we had to land in diff place..waited there for like 30 minutes before fly back to the right place. MashaAllah..we were already there but stil didnt get the opportunity..its all Allah's plan. He noes better.

I must say here...the whole journey of ours was totally torturing.. tears non stop flowing down... Even i just get to now him for such a short time, i feel a great lost. He was a fine man, wonderful dad n beautiful human being. Things are not the same anymore without him around.

Ya Allah, please please....grant him Your mercy. Please place him in highest Jannah as he deserves it..ameen..

Guys..cn u jus spend few sec to pray for his soul..
It means everything to me.. thank you. Thank you sooo much.

Al-fatehah..

heaven of my own...

Salam n hai u all...

It has been long time since last time i updated my blog. Honestly speaking guys...i opened n then closed this blog like hundred times because there were 1001 things that i want to share with u all but i have no idea from where to begin...

Neways..let me update u guys with latest story first. Hmmm...so, yesterday was me n ma hubby 2nd wed anniversary. Eventhough its our 2nd but its the very first time we are celebrating it together (last year i was stil in Indo).. All i can say is Alhamdulillah ya Allah... thank you thank you soooo much for everything ya Allah. Me, my husband and family are really blessed..jus continue to bless us n please guide us continuously throughout this challenging world of Yours. Well..we didnt actually went all out this time.its was more like simple-yet-romantic way i will say..hehe. I got him a present n so does he..

Beautiful rite... Alhamdulillah..

Alrite...time to update u ppl bout working life. So., Alhamdulillah after working for 2 months without salary finally i get paid. First of all., i brought my parents out n treat them.  That was what i always wanted to do when i get my first salary.. :-)   Simply love the smile on their face(except for sumtime when dad start grumbling on how iam wasting my salary..heheh)

Work is all gud. Its mayb time for me  to start studying for my assessment since it jus 2 months away..pfffttttt... non stop exams.. Really getting fedup with examsss..

Ok then guys. Really need to go.
Will write later on..till then.. adiosss :-)

missing me....?????!!!!

Salam n hi to alll.........

Seriously i miss my blog soooooooooooo much. I jus cnt find time to update my blog. So much to share wit u all but duty comes first ( to massage my mom leg)..huhuhuhu .

Talk to u guys later k..

Lots of love... muahxxxx...
Xoxoxoxxo..

Ya Allah...

Salam n hi all...

Iam very2 sad rite now.. n why isit..??? I cnt be at peaced when my brothers n sisters of Islam at Egypt are dying. Not only in Egypt..also Palestine and not forgetting Syria. Ya Allah...it is soooooooo heart breaking!!. If anything can be changed if i cry a river...i would do it happily. Ya Allah. Pleaseeee show those heartless people Your power. Its all iam asking..

Do remember one thing people out there..U ARE GONNA PAY ..FOR WATEVER YOU DID.. No matter how small or big it is...it could b here or in hereafter.

Iam sooooo sad rite now...if i could fly to be a part of those mujahideen, i swear i would.

Ya Allah.

Long awaited..

Salam.. n hi all.. :)

Alhamdulillah.. today i officially finished the 2nd rotation. Such are relieve. ^^. It has been a really annoying and tiring day. Everyone was having mood swing..coz of the 'geges-ness' (never heard of this word?? google it! ). Such a no-no way to end up our 10 longggggg weeksss.. @@. Emotionsss..pffttt..~

Well...once iam back after settling ALL the paperworks, i've been cleaning up my house like a mad gal. Wondering wy??? Hehehe..insyaAllah tomorrow my parents are arriving. :D They goin to attend my oath taking ceremony..hmmm..actually i am the one who pesterd them to come..Ngeeee..~ Hey...let me tell u.. oath taking is more important event compare to the graduation. N wy isit?? Becoz..by taking the oath we are officially DOCTOR. I wil give anything to make my parents to be part of  this one of the important days in my life.

Jus want to share wit u all..my dreams that i want to achieve in this life are..(definitely after being a wonderful daei, Allah's obdient servant and success in life..)  to give happiness to my parents. I jus wish i could do every single little thing tat could bring smile on their face. Nothing.. NOthINg...NOTHING could give me more joy than that.

Ehemm....back to the oath taking story.. hurmmm..i jus hope everything wil finish on time so tat i could go back with my parents.. InsyaAllah.. Please.. u all pray for me too.. :)  oke~

Rite now..gotta make something to eat since i never eat anything from dawn .. huhu

Oke...bye2 all..~ Allahafiz ^^

silentttt...

Salam n hi ol..~

Did u guys ever heard of tis saying " SILENT IS A KILLER" or "SILENCE THERAPY".. Hoho..  Bet u did. Well..iam hereby declare that this saying are nothing but truth... huuuhuhuhuu...

Seriously..this house has never been this silence before. See...even a single soul could make a diff. Today morning, my hommie went back to Malaysia. n she wil b returning on our graduation day. Uwaaaa... if oni i could go back wit her.. huhuhuuuhuhu..

Nevermind my dear soul..insyaAllah u ar soon goin back too... Be positive.. !!! InsyaAllah..all is well. Jus another 3 weeks.. InsyaAllah. :)

By the way..there is a gud news, i want to share here..Hehehe. My hommie told me not to tell my frens yet.. But she didnt restrict me from mentioning it in my blog..hahaha..~ So..people.. My hommie...... she...... she is........ PREGNANT.!!!!  Alhamdulillah. :) Like old people say.. "bunting pelamin". Alhamdulillah rezeki mereka.  I'l pray tat ur baby wil one of the pioner of Islam n a wonderful child for his/her parents and a great human being.. ameenn..


Oh man....its already nite..n i yet hv to cook.. Mekkk...y did u go back soooo fast??? see..im missing u aready...hahaha~ FYI people..she really loves to cook. N if iam too lazy to cook..i'l jus ask her.. Cool rite.. *Sigh*  Miss u mekk... ;)

 *emo*

Wasalam. :)

annoying..

Salam n hi ppl..

Hw ar u all? hope all is doin fine..nope..wonderful..n enjoying life to the max.

while iam here cracking my head bout 101 things to be taken care of. Haiiiiiiyyyyya...seriously such a burden to my brain.

wanna noe wats goin on :

1. 2 group of ppl are fighting to shift into my house as soon as i finish.

2. ma hommie goin back tomorrw..uwawawawawaw...

3. papers for yudisium are not prepared yt..


ya Allah..help me out plis.. :(

Pissed off BIG time.

Salam n hi ol..

Hope ur day was brighter n wonderful than mine. Even when iam typing rite now..the anger is not subsiding.
Arghhh.. ya Allah..plis grant me patient.. :) Astaghfirullahal'azim3... inhale..exhale.

So..wondering wat happend is it ?
Let me tell u then..

Yesterday nite..while me n my groupmatez were parting after finishing our work at McD. <house no electricity so we decided to donate few bucks to mcD and borrow their wifi..hehe> we planned to gather at campus d next  morning <today morning> at 6.30am so tat we can eat breakfast at this One shop which seems to be really famous in Bungus.( My puskesmas place).

So then we headed back to our houses..

Today morning, 6.29am
in front of campus... -------------------------------------------------------- living soul. But then i were like stil comforting myself.."they goin to be here.. u are just too early..".. N d next 10min..i start to boil up ardy. Wat the hell la..they think if they didnt cm ..i cnt go is it?? so wat i did was..i called up d taxi off.. But UNFORTUNATELY..no one pick up my call. So..i jus went to nearby stall to kill  my time n fill up  my stomach. Later on..around 7.20am..a fren msgd n askd where i ws.. but i didnt bother to reply. I took my sweet time n 10min later i went to the campus.

N guess wat about 30min later oni we make a move to our Puskesmas. HOW PUNCTUAL .!!!!huh. out of 4 people..oni 1 apologized. Amazing rite.

Now u tell me..how cn i not be pissed la..

p/s: i didnt tel the whole story yet..but jus noe tat today wasnt in my favour, obviously.. by looking at events tat happnd. Screw ol this ppl la.Pfftttt.

emo.. =.=

Salam..


PMS...might sound familiar for girls... Wat is akceli tis PMS.??? instability of emotion...maybe d best word to describe it.. Mase dolu2..bile member ckp.. 'aku tgh PMS nie weiii..' i'll be like..'wat the heck isit suppose to be..?? do i hv stay a way from u till u get 'normal' back..???' At tat time...masih blurr bout tis gals syndrome.. ingatkan ape la kan. Sampai la kene kat  batang idung sndri... Uwaaa...seriously..!!!

Wat i'l say is...u ar a lucky one..IF u xpenah kene/ade tis 'mengade2' thingy. Its not like u can control it.. Dah name pon ade kaitan wit hormones n female physiological thingy..so its beyond our control oke.. Now people..if there's any of ur fren come up to u n say.. 'Im hvn PMS..' please be considerate to them.. Tolerate all their 'time being' touchy2...

Maybe bukan semua gals out there wil hv same problms in PMS.. like myself..,recently when i'm bout to get my 'tanggal merah',i'l be like super duper emo..~ I NEVER WANT IT TAU.. i'l b d most sensitive gal on this earth.. getting irritated for the smallest things n cries a river for NO REASON..! All this deppressing feelin wil come n haunt  me..make me feels lonely..n bla2..~ Sound scary..??? YES IT ISSSS...~

Like jus now..i cry like a baby when i talkd to my mom.. n why was i crying..???  because i missed my dad.. I got this weird feelin n ol i noe is i have to see him  RITE NOW..!!like there's goin  to be no tommorrow.. Great i jus make them worrried... ~puffttt.~

Oke....the point is...PMS.. hurmmm...SCAryyy....~

AgAIN itS 1 REJAB..

Salam...

D same date n same feelin... it has been five years on dot today..~ Things are never the same since 6 years ago...
Ya Allah... tempatkanlah almarhumah adikku dikalangan orang-orang yang Engkau lindungi dari api neraka dan di kalangan orang-orang yang akan Engkau tempatkan di syurga al-firdaus Mu.. aaminnn...

patience.. :(

salam...

huk3...~ sedihnyeeeeeeeee...(errk...apekes.. br mule jew dh sedey..? ).. Well..i think this is wat people say about ' dugaan lepas kawen'.

Dugaan Allah utk setiap pasangan berbeza2.. bcoz He knows limit kite.. So dugaan yg diberi juga bersesuaian dengan kemampuan kta handle dugaan tersebut.. SubhanAllah..

Dugaan saya lak...long distance.. kekdg tenet buat hal, smtymes  electricity jus cnt take it seeing us happy... or at tymes there is simply no laptop available... Sedih die...MasyaAllah.. cuma Allah yang mengetahui..

Nevertheless..i never gave up, stil i'll wait til d vry end wit d hope i can chat wit him before d day ends.. (Dalam hati..harapkan pahala Allah to wait for d dearest husband.. --> nak jadi isteri solehah la...hehe..insyaAllah..)

Doakan la buat kebahagian kami kepada sesiape di luar sana yg mayb terbaca blog saya nie or post ini..

Semoga kami diberi kesabaran dan kekuatan mengharungi dugaan ini dan akhirnya dapat bersama di dunia dan di akhirat di bawah naunganNya.. ameen..

p/s  : HubBy.. I'M mISSIng U alOTSSS..  love U. :)

perfect..??!!!

salam...n hei there..~

ar u perfect..??? well...i xpernah consider myself as PerFect.! I'm aint angel.. i'm not flawless...i bukan 'cukup bagus kinda girl'..i'm not a brilliant student..i'm not 'out-of-d-world-gorgeous'.. I'm jus a simple ME. But yet..at tymes..i really have to do sumthings tat wil make ppl to question me back.. 'ko ingat ko bagus sgt ke..??' 'ko rs ko je yg cantik kat dunia nie..?' 'ape ko ingat aku terhegeh2 kat ko..?' OR.. 'asal ko kurg ajar sgt eh.??" well3...i dnt care wat people think bout me..yg i noe..i dnt do any bad things to u  guys..i jus want to b alone. JUS LEAVE ME ALONE. bile kite dh bg byk la sgt signals yg org yg xgi sekolah pon blh paham..!!! then U yg force me to b a BIATche..! hope nw u wil understand. Believe me tis is for our own gud. U wil b thankfull to me one day.. :)

arghhhhhhhh..!!!!

Astaghafirullah-halazimmmmmmmmmmmm.... syaitan3 sekalian pegi la main jauh-jauhhhhhhhhhh ehhh... !!!!!!
uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...sgt3 emosi nie... nie sume gare2 syaitan2 ni la... huhu..~

ya Allah...dugaan nie..sgt menyeksa sukma ku...huhu.. :(

Saya nk buat pengakuan kat sni.. Saya sgt3 tertarik dgn lelaki wif chinese look yg smart n gud lookin.. Ade je lelaki2 dgn kriteria tersebut..mate nie mcm dh ter'gam' kat wajah dorg.. cissss...sgt2 memalukan.. Kalau dorg perasaan mesti terdetik kat hati dorg.. 'xpenah tengok org ke..??' uwaahhh..malunye.. tp nk buat cane eh... syaitan2 nie suke sgt menggoda saya dgn menggunakan anda sebagai modal..!!

Klu ade yg terbace nie mesti ckp.. ' So wat's d big deal..??'.. 'Normal la ppuan suke kat laki..habis tu xkan nk tertarik kat sesame ppuan kowt..!!' TAPI anda2 sekalian.. it is NOT oke for an engaged girl utk tertarik kat laki lain selain fiancee dorg rite..!! hohoho...

Rase nk nangis darah pon ade.. so skrg nk salahkan sape..?? yes..  u ar rite..! Mereka dan keluarga mereka.. hahahaha..~ hmmmm....well..i admit salah diri sndri pon ade gak. Lemah sgt smpi boleh digode2 oleh en.setan3.. heheh~. well..there is also ur fault mr.fiancee..! knp anda ada tp xpenah wujud..? tell me..

Ya Allah..kuatkan imanku..semoga aku dan keluarga ku sentiasa dibawah peliharaanMu.. ameen.. ^^

loneliness...

salam..

hmm..wat do guys think about veing lonely...??? or loneliness..???
is it scary..?? is it saddening / pathethic..?? or do u think its beautiful..??

well..in my case, i'm agree wit d last one.. Yes, for me its beautiful.. Wanna noe y..?? then let me share wit u sumthing amazing bout bein lonely.. =)


"Something to share as I get much disturbed with all the noise, crowds.. Endless problems and crisis.. and bla bla and looking for a solution. I came to an answer

When a Muslims does not find who will help him go firmly and righteously on the journey from this life to the Hereafter, then let him be as what Ahmed bin Hanbal Rahimullah Ta'ala suggested..

"I find loneliness more comforting in my heart!"

Another saying from Abu Darda Rahimullah Ta'ala, A righteous companion is better than loneliness and loneliness is better than a wicked companion. Further, he who directs to righteousness is better than he who is idle, but he who is idle is better than he who directs to evil.

When this dunya distracts you, remember there is another way to make you get closer to Allah.

It's nothing wrong to be alone rather than peering with the evil doers. "



this one i'm quoting from a fren of mine.. Wat cn i say..we hv d same opinion on being lonely.. =)


but i do admit..its not alwiz beautiful bein lonely. It could lead to depression, or worst than tat..
maka..berbalik la pada hadith arbain yg petama..tat is niat. Kalau niat kita baik..iaitu utk mengambil waktu itu utk reflect diri qt semula , maka apa yg kita buat akan diberkati Allah serta mendapat bantuanNya...dan begitu juga sebaliknya.


Wallahualam.. 


Wasalam.. =D